Measures of success… & other launch day realities

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On the verge…

Of success? Maybe.

Of worldwide recognition? It could happen.

But one book does not a writing career make.

I had no illusions about my first book launch. It’s not a matter of confidence, but one of realism. This is a damn tough business. Editors, publishers, covers, formatting, constant digital interaction—all of it takes time and energy and money. Most of which I never seem to have enough of, but somehow manage anyway.

No book is an overnight bestseller and it takes several more, combined with many years, for a series to grab a readership. I know the numbers. I’ve seen the stats. The reality is stark and unyielding, but it’s not impossible and it’s no longer intimidating.

This one book is proof, mostly to myself, that I can do this. Now it’s time for the next step.

The thing that most people don’t know is I launched this book with rotating internet outage and on the brink of my power being shut off. Yep, that’s right. I’m staring at the notice of imminent outage scheduled for the 31st of July. I’m short on my rent for tomorrow, and my fridge is nearly bare. My life is either on the threshold of something big, or a complete collapse. 

Yet, I’m not broken or hopeless or particularly depressed. Because this is life. We claw our way through, chasing dreams or building them with the hopes and intention to be greater than circumstances. Everyone is experiencing their own level of struggle, and one is not larger than another. Our demons, whether internal or external, only have the power we give them. It’s not about triumph over life, but a slow and steady commitment to living through it while still recognizing the moments of joy and connection.

I own little of worth, but the things I cherish aren’t objects of financial value. Over the past five years, I’ve watched my children grow into amazing and kind adults. I’ve made genuine and life-long friendships. I’ve found people who know the parts of me that huddle in the corner for fear of losing everything, and the parts that take on the world. Still they believe in me, even when I don’t believe in myself.

Sometimes I screw everything up. Sometimes I get in over my head and am too prideful to ask for help. Sometimes I don’t have a single answer and wish people would stop asking me questions.

In fact, I’m not exactly sure what to do at this moment.

But in the face of acknowledging I know absolutely nothing, the Universe gave me an answer… or solution… or a peaceful silence that is an answer all by itself.

So, yes, my first launch was quiet. Almost ninja-like. Because I have no illusions that one book is the cure. But I took another step forward, and persistence is the only absolute certainty I know.

 

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Ring Binder is now available on Amazon kindle.

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10 thoughts on “Measures of success… & other launch day realities

  1. Billie

    Beginning to read Ring Binder now. Your very much an inspiration. This one little spoke in your wheel of onterage apprecates your kind words and encouragement

    Sent from my iPhone

  2. Lucy Lit

    Holy cow, Ranee. I continue to be in awe of you as a person and an author. I am so blessed by your words, talent and presence in the world. Whatever I can do for you, it’s yours.

    • Ms. Lucy, we’ve had the most wonderfully honest conversations, and I appreciate them all. Your struggles and triumphs inspire me. Thank you for your kindness and friendship.

  3. Kathy B.

    Sometimes the best thing to do in the moment is to BE. You are an awesome mentor, coach, editor, writer. It’s been an honor to work with you and I hope we can continue to work together in the future. If there is ever anything I can do, please know you can call on me. Hugs.

    • It’s been such a pleasure getting to know you and your beautiful words. Thank you for letting me into your universe. 🙂

  4. Darling, it is still a wonderful achievement, and something to be rejoiced.
    I promise that these challenges do make us stronger, as you know I am one of the many in this country sitting without utilities, and also fighting to pay the rent, keep gas in the car, and food in the cupboards and cooler. We develop strength over time, and a few years ago, this would have been a nightmare for me. Now, I am surviving, and making it through one step at a time.
    So, rejoice now, and then face what tomorrow brings.
    Peace and love!

  5. Very inspiring post and great advice, Ranee. Thanks for sharing. I wish you every success with this book and the next, and the next…

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